runny noses are cute?

ryan just came down with his very first cold, ever.  not bad for almost 18 months of being sick-free.  he has a slight cough and a runny nose.  i always thought (and still think) it's gross when i see other kids with runny noses, but gosh it's so darn cute when it's your own!

1 in 10,000 chance

that was the chance ryan had of developing an abscess in his eye after strabismus surgery.  how did he get to be the lucky one?  

ryan had strabismus surgery on wed. morning.  i noticed his left eyelid becoming increasingly red on thurs night.  he was admitted to the hospital on fri and that's where we currently are.  he had 1 in 1,000 chance of developing an infection after the surgery.  the first infection for his doctor.  

poor guy has been through so much that i can't (and dont' want to) relive any moment thus far.  he went in for his second surgery today and now his left eyelid is the size of a golf ball.  o.k. maybe not THAT big, but very close to it.  he has refused to open his eyes since the surgery so i don't even know how bad the inside looks.  however, the doctor did warn us that it will look very bad...i'm scared.

doesn't his throat hurt?

ryan has decided that screaming is cool.  he screams when he's excited, he screams when he laughs, he screams when he's mad.  my ears hurt, but i still love him!

2 weeks away

i am finally home after 2 weeks away in montreal and my parent's house. i can't believe how much stuff gets piled up when i'm away! it's def. a lot harder to be away when you have an infant. ryan has been such a trooper, i feel so blessed to have such an awesome son! only a couple more weeks until ry's 1st birthday. although i'm excited, i think God is keeping me busy so i don't think about how sad i am inside.