2 weeks away

i am finally home after 2 weeks away in montreal and my parent's house. i can't believe how much stuff gets piled up when i'm away! it's def. a lot harder to be away when you have an infant. ryan has been such a trooper, i feel so blessed to have such an awesome son! only a couple more weeks until ry's 1st birthday. although i'm excited, i think God is keeping me busy so i don't think about how sad i am inside.

Motherhood

motherhood is an amazing thing. i have never felt this overwhelming amount of love for anyone or anything before. it's also a bit scary too, especially because ryan has down syndrome. so far we have been so blessed that he has no health problems and especially blessed that he has no heart problems. he's also reaching each milestone within his age range and even ahead in some! despite that, i worry. i worry about his future. i worry about how society will treat him. i worry about whether he'll have friends. i want to hold him in my arms and sheild him from anything and everything that will hurt him, but i know i can't. he has already grown so much. every week i get teary eyed as a new outfit that was once too big, fits.
God has given me ryan so i know He has faith in craig and i to raise this beautiful child. i just hope that despite everything ryan will go through in life, he'll always know that his mommy and daddy love him.

Passport

we have booked our flights to montreal in october! we are super excited to see everyone and of course eat some poutine and at amir's!


since we now need a passport to travel to and from canada, we have to get one for little ryan who's barely 5 1/2 weeks old.


i called around town and surprisingly, the only place that would take infant pictures was costco. so off we went. it was ryan's first trip out of the house (except twice to see his doctor). when we got there, it took us 20 mins of sweating(literally) to get the above picture. we all had quite a laugh with the final result. hopefully the passport agency accepts the picture and thank goodness it's only valid for 5 years!