last november

it has been a year now since ryan had surgery on his eyes. after all the little guy went through, his eyes are starting to cross again. not in the same way they did before the surgery, but crossing nonetheless. before surgery is considered again, we're going to try out glasses. hopefully that will do the trick, but wearing glasses is going to be a huge struggle.

crazy how fast a year passes. i still remember so many little details of the entire 3 weeks like it was yesterday. it still brings tears to my eyes thinking back at all the pain my little guy was in. i often think about aaron, a friend ryan had made while hospitalized who had been in the hospital for almost a year. during our 2 1/2 week stay, he had no visitors and only received a couple calls from home. i hope he is still alive and is now healthy.

::UPDATE:: so happy to find out aaron is still alive! yay!!

Maxon Tino Gilmore

baby max was born on saturday august 29 at 12:05pm. he weighed 8lbs 11 oz and was 19 1/2 inches. so glad he came at 39 weeks otherwise who knows how much bigger he would have been! he's healthy and doing well. can't believe how different this pregnancy AND delivery was compared to ryan's. who knew things could be soooo easy?

36 weeks 1 day

this is the longest i've been pregnant! i've been on edge since week 35 praying that this little guy would stay put until at least week 37. so far so good. just 6 more days to go and then i can relax!

First Steps!!!

i can't believe it, ryan has taken his first steps!!  honestly, i almost cried.  21 long months of working with him and the moment has come!  just last week i was talking to his pt and craig about how i really didn't think he would walk until after he turned 2 and BAM he proves me wrong once again.  i am so insanely proud of him!!  way to go ry ry!!!!!!!! 

runny noses are cute?

ryan just came down with his very first cold, ever.  not bad for almost 18 months of being sick-free.  he has a slight cough and a runny nose.  i always thought (and still think) it's gross when i see other kids with runny noses, but gosh it's so darn cute when it's your own!

1 in 10,000 chance

that was the chance ryan had of developing an abscess in his eye after strabismus surgery.  how did he get to be the lucky one?  

ryan had strabismus surgery on wed. morning.  i noticed his left eyelid becoming increasingly red on thurs night.  he was admitted to the hospital on fri and that's where we currently are.  he had 1 in 1,000 chance of developing an infection after the surgery.  the first infection for his doctor.  

poor guy has been through so much that i can't (and dont' want to) relive any moment thus far.  he went in for his second surgery today and now his left eyelid is the size of a golf ball.  o.k. maybe not THAT big, but very close to it.  he has refused to open his eyes since the surgery so i don't even know how bad the inside looks.  however, the doctor did warn us that it will look very bad...i'm scared.

doesn't his throat hurt?

ryan has decided that screaming is cool.  he screams when he's excited, he screams when he laughs, he screams when he's mad.  my ears hurt, but i still love him!